I know this is last minute, but.... I just HAVE to share this event with you all and hope that the folks who live here locally are able to make it:

(Thanks to Phaedrus for bringing this to our attention)



Robert Thurman is coming to Boulder!   On July 23rd, Elephant Journal will be hosting an Elevision and book signing with Professor Robert Thurman at the Boulder Theater!

If you can make it out, you definitely should! It should be fun.... music, a fashion show, other guests, and Prof. Robert Thurman (first American-born Tibetan Buddhist monk, a friend of H.H. Dalai Lama XIV, and Uma's dad).

If you are looking for more info - go here.

Doors open:  6:30pm
Event starts: 8:00pm

Fee:  $9.00 online (plus online convenience fee of $2.00); or
$11.00 at the door

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AND.... just on an "inside note" ... the lovely, Siona, will be playing a small role in the Elevision event as an eco-model - so keep an eye out towards the end of the event for the fashion segment!!!

I will be arriving at the venue when the doors open - at 6:30pm ... the event itself doesn't start until closer to 8pm, so this will give us plenty of time to meet and chat before!  I am SO hoping that the local Gaians will be able to make it out to attend!  I am extremely excited to be able to meet Robert Thurman and hear the interview with him - I find him to be quite inspiring and an exemplary world-changer!!!

I know it's quite impromptu - but, Let's Get Together!!!

I guess the Universe is really opening to challenging me in ways that just leave me drop-jaw ... I've updated my phone number to a Colorado number and sent it out to all of my contacts - including one in particular who recently reconnected with me after a VERY bizarre turn of events where she had lashed out at me -- but, I am the type of person who is open enough to allow reconnections to "heal" or work through things ... so I had started communicating with her again.  Received pictures of her family, emails about a condo she was purchasing... so I was really OPEN to allowing this to grow back into a friendship connection despite the past experiences.

So... today, after having sent out the email; I get a response back from her basically saying;

"I thought it may have been obvious that I lost interest in reconnecting with you since I haven't instigated any more contact with you since May...You emailed me once after that and I emailed you back with a very short response...Then you sent me an invite to one of your new websites a while ago and I didn't respond and now this email...
 
Just so there is no confusion and so you won't be energetically tied to me, I'm letting you know that I'm not interested in any reconnection...I've already severed any remaining ties and I would advise you do the same..."

Seriously CONFUSED ...

What is it with passive-aggressive people in my life .... am I passive-aggressive and just not seeing ways in which I am being that way?  Is that why those types of people are being brought to the fore-front of my life right now?

Well, that's it .... no more... I am stating my boundaries from now forward with friendship.  There are things I will NOT tolerate in my life ... PERIOD.  This kind of bs is not okay with me at ALL!

And yes.... this gets me ANGRY ... I don't know any human alive who wouldn't get their feathers ruffled about this kind of "hook and reel" method of screwing with someone's mind and then just dropping someone once they've reconnected .... it's not cool.... not cool at all.


okay... it's off my heart/chest .... so this irritation will pass quickly out of my life.



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Excuses.

I received one of two gift packages enroute to me from one of our very own Gaia members, Aaron (Umguy) ... I am SO stoked to support/share/promote his creative Mr. Huggins & Snugglypoo ... definitely go check out the comics!  http://www.mrhuggins.com when you get a chance ... it's funny ... dry at times, but I like that kind of humor!

Here's the magnet ... I also received post-cards to share with people too ... YAY!


THANK YOU, AARON!!!

just a reminder to keep checking in daily to support Dragan (aka SixthSense) in his pursuit to win a competition he entered.

Original blog entry HERE.

I face many challenges in my life and I am used to feeling "in control" of things.  So much so that I have become somewhat addicted to that feeling ... in control.  The challenge I face with this, though, is that I am also mildly bi-polar.  I have manic moments... sometimes for days on end.  And, when it's bad... well, it's deeply so.  I block everything ... but I am still "functional" enough to not do any extreme physical harm ... I hydrate well enough .... eat okay-ish ... and manage to at least keep up on the hygiene so as not to gross myself out.

Anywho ... I just went through a powerfully deep period that started on Thursday... challenging because all I wanted to do was stay at home and do nothing... but I knew I had certain obligations (like work).  However, once home... I did not step out of my living space upstairs until Sunday afternoon... cloistered.  I am aware that I do this ... it's observable.  What is challenging for me is to allow it to happen and stop judging myself for what I "should be doing" ... in my head is this bizarre dance of judgment - harsh judgment - that no one else hears ... terrifying chatter.

So, coming out of this "funk" as I put it ... is equally as bizarre as going into it.  I'm still slightly covered in the energetic-gunk that I was sitting in ... drowning in, actually.  So I *feel* like people can see it; I then project what they might be thinking about me.  And, concurrently, thinking they have NO idea what I am going through.

So... how do I get to that point of being okay with who I am .... chip marks, pocks, dents, damage and all?  Each experience with this depressive state allows me an opportunity to be there and let go of that illusory "control" ... there are no "shoulds" that are definite.  There is nothing that I *have to* be other than who I am perfectly evolving as - in the present moment. 

Where does the chatter come from?  Who programmed this vessel?  Where is my "clean sweep" utility?  Am I on the verge of a break?  Am I willing to be totally broken?  Am I willing to risk absolute loss of control?  What does it feel like to free fall?  Am I willing to be completely and totally powerful at the same time?

This is what it is like for me to deal with depression ... and I am finally admitting - openly - that I am facing this challenge ... I had been so far in denial based on comparative analysis between that of my father and sister and me ... I thought that by comparing my "issues" with what they've faced as "diagnosed" manic/bi-polars that I could not possibly be depressive - I have a great life in comparison - so what do I have to be depressed about?  In floods the "shoulds" and "shouldn'ts" that take me there.

Also... this is far different from my "raw" blog entries ... those are when I am okay with *being* angry and vocal.  This stuff, however, is when you don't hear from me for long periods of time ... this is the first time that I've written about it so wide open to the world. (not that *that* many people read my blog) ... but you know what I mean.  It's about authenticity - okay with showing all my flaws, so that I can learn to love them.  Once I love the "bad" about  me... the more I can just love me for who I am... all of me.

I am not writing this by any means to get any sympathetic attention ... this is a challenge for me to publically admit that I am facing this.  I am sending a message to the Universe that I am ready to grow from this.  I am ready to find a new level of *being* with this challenge in my life.  I am ready to live as an example of how to productively live with this challenge... and to love me with this challenge as a part of who I am.

Here I grow...

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My score:

11-15 points: Yep, You’re a Scuppie All Right!

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Yes, this is a contest of sorts so I would love to win first prize for referring top numbers on friends.  This is a great opportunity to promote individual, creative expression - who doesn't love t-shirts!?!


Have a great time shopping and if you do get something, hit me back here and show me the design... I may go get one myself!!!

Thank you all, in advance, for your support on this!!!

Be well,
~K

I wanted to get out of the house for the day and happened to check my Twitter account to see a note about "ultimate frisbee" going on in Boulder... so I ventured out and met up with friends:  Ayako, Matthew, NinjaMasterDave, and Casey (as well as others that I didn't recognize or know).

Here are a few pictures from the visit: (click on image to go through to Flickr set)



It was an incredibly beautiful day to enjoy a bit of outside fun (I was a spectator in this event - photographer and "peanut gallery" sitter)

I look forward to getting out a bit more this summer and enjoying gatherings much like this.  I'm also happy to be meeting more and more local folks, too... I'd like to feel a bit more settled into the area by creating a great network of offline friends, in addition to the great friends I have here on Gaia and my other networks.

Fresh air + Sunshine + Friends = Heaven on Earth!

I got this message this morning and ACTED immediately upon it!!!

"HELP!  A warrant for my arrest has been issued by the March of Dimes for aiding and abetting the fight against prematurity.

I have been found GUILTY of wanting every baby to be born full-term and healthy! To avoid doing hard time for my crimes I must raise my bail quickly.  YOU CAN HELP bail me out – or contribute to my incarceration.  Visit my cell online at http://jailandbail.marchofdimes.com/jsporsche87 today."

I thought, OMG.... this is my friend - a warrant??? Of course I wanted to help him!  It's a bummer all this jail time... but I am sure it is serving him good to be there! ;) hehehe!

I have to admit... this is probably the cutest fundraising event that I've seen in a LONG time!  I am somewhat put-off by some charities with the unimaginative way in which they almost begrudgingly go ask for fundraising.  THIS is clever and I am THRILLED to participate... and it reminds me that I have got the coolest network of world-changing, love-blazing friends... booyah!!!

So... go help him out!!! donate what you can!